Good morning. TGIF!
As another week comes to a close I am feeling weighed down and exhausted. I feel very alone in this weight, but I know this is only the beginning.
The beginning of a stronger me who is independent, able-bodied, adaptable, and fierce. Or the beginning of the beautiful life which I want for myself and have always dreamt of being able to live.
Title of Today’s Morning Message: Giving up isn’t an option ( life never stops when you are alive)
I know this title isn’t the nicest title, but it is the truth and I think that matters more.
We all know about the phrases “giving up”, “giving in”, or “take a l”. Which they aren’t bad general statements, but they are not the right philosophy for those who aim to survive and thrive.
In college I have learned first-hand about hard work and pushing even when you are not happy about the pushing that is required.
Because if you want to succeed and have a normal life as an adult you must push. Especially for those in the phase of life at my age of 19 years old. We are still considered new to the adult world, but we are still not children or teenagers anymore. We have a whole new set of responsibilities and expectations in society now.
Which I don’t completely resent, lol. I love my newfound freedom and my opportunities to lead, assist, teach, and speak. The confidence to do these things came with time. So I thank God for my maturity.
But some days I wonder what life would be like if I gave up being a determined full time college student, working overtime, trying to run and launch a business that isn’t really beneficial financially right now, or dreaming so big that I can’t sleep unless I know I have tried all I can to think, pray, and see those things manifest.
What if I just gave up trying to be the best version of Hannah. Not that I don’t want the best version of myself, but is the struggle worth it. Is the networking worth it? Is the social media stuff worth it?
Should I just go back to being only about me? Like a child in a big world full of people I don’t need to know. Stop caring about the big agenda, and just make sure I look good and feel good. Which I know would be very hard for me because I have been traveling this particular path with the Lord for a while now.
When you are alive, and I mean when you have a flame or a light that lives inside you giving up isn’t an option. I know it isn’t always easy to bear carrying the light God your creator has formed within you, but it is part of your identity and who you are. Once it has been put to use and revealed to your mind and heart you have come alive. While you are alive giving up isn’t an option, but there is so much death and expectation of death around us.
For those who have not given in or will not give up being on the mission field and living intentionally we have a lot of accountability held to us and responsibilities. I am with you and we will continue doing what God has called us to. But along with that inspiration we must pray, release, forgive, and let things be.
Don’t give up on your calling and vision or working hard, but also know that you are only human and you are not destined to be in control but instead to be an obedient and powerful soldier.
Enjoy your Friday, and I hope this message serves to lift your soul someway somehow.